涟漪·悸动

其实,每个人,每样事情,都会给你带来一些想法,一些回忆。

往往,我们都以为一些人,一些东西我们已经遗忘了,或很久没有碰了,就似乎已经对我们接下来的生活无关痛痒。

我们和这些人,那些东西,其实都是联系着,曾经接触过,就是历史,不能改变。

很久以后,那些人,这些东西,我们从新在人群中擦身而过,在封了尘的箱子里拿回来,

他/她/它还能够给你当时的感觉,还是好像以前一模一样吗?

 

除了自己的,你也会好奇身边那位的吗?

心里的激动,永远都是自己感受最真实的。

两个人要有同时的感觉,是要历经一些什么?

I’m just not in the right place

This is a very quiet weekend.

I think a lot, many things come into my mind.

I dreamt, I thought, pondering time to time…..

 

It seems like a lot of things to get done,

but it does not mean I have no time,

I just feel so lonely…..

I wonder where all the nonsense and pressure come from.

Stop it, I have to step back a bit..come back…

Be good, always! YES

 

Hey buddies, you all made me feel great last night, I still have a bunch of you!

 

P/S: Sweetheart, I want to tell you ‘ I want to grow old with you’…. I am afraid that I can’t say this to you until I see you again. Carpe Diem

Photos from Lynn (finally)

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Definitely a good night!

 

I’m so unstable recently, I don’t know why! And I feel like I have so much pressure from no where!

And I m like lost control, starting to make myself unhappy, cry, worry, nervous, etc etc..

I always worry that I don’t give enough to Fui, I can’t get the job well done for him…

I even pray for Fui, he is picking the right soulmate, ME! Am I?

Is it kind of sick? The sick of pre-marriage or something?

The smell of holiday!

这个四天假期,真的令人有些兴奋!

因为可以每天和他粘在一起!

可是,并不是想象中那样美好的!

因为,他要在马来人新年这两天到semporna拜年,应该就是那种‘政治’年吧!

所以,今天傍晚才见到他!

明天,又是要去semporna拜年,而且要拜访更多户,哇!

所以,明天应该大多数泡汤的了!

可是,没有关系!

尤其最近的我,虽然有时候不能够见面会有一些失望,可是我又会觉得天天见面也许会很腻吧?应该往好的一方面想,我们在不久的将来就是要每天见面了。晚上睡觉前看他一眼,早上第一个人就是看见他。哈!

刚刚我们终于把‘败犬女王’DVD看完了!我们都觉得蛮不错的一部台湾连续剧。

辉觉得杨谨华很漂亮,我也是啦!而且我觉得她在戏里的装扮还不错的!而且令我有冲动想剪像她一样短的头发。嗯,几时呢?

这部连续剧的故事里,有好多话都很有意思,尤其像我常常逞强的人,辉每当看见卢卡斯说单无双的时候,就会连我也说一番。哈哈!好看好看。

而且辉很主动和我看连续剧,有好几个晚上我们还看到三更半夜呢!嘻嘻!

好了,要继续享受接着的两天假期。接下来的一个礼拜,才工作三天而已!真的是两天晒网,三天打鱼!哈哈!

some of my wedding gifts~ it’s not about the price, it’s about the heart. Thanks!

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还站在原点的我

一直以来,我以为自己可以很妥善的分配时间在工作和婚礼筹备,还有装修上。

我以为虽然这些都是第一次接触的东西,但是都不会难倒我的。

我太相信自己的能力了。

我还以为我控制得很好。

可是,一个星期又一个星期,从前什么都很急的我,这一次我竟然由得事情慢慢进行。

慢工出细货,也许真的太慢了。

以为什么都要问别人意见自己再决定才是最好,不见得。

为什么这些以为自己做得好的自信,自我不可以摆到别的地方去呢?

我错了。

 

我根本就是担当不起这个角色。

我接受,因为我自己本来就不是一个那么好处理的人。

只能说,没有像以前那样爆发得不可收拾,我给我自己一个小小的掌声鼓励。

要赶上别人的脚步,差得远啊!

Office Politics vs. Wedding

Talking about working, it’s about putting your effort and knowledge as much as you can, so that you can get the chance to promote, incremental of salary, to achieve yourself ambitions and so on. It’s not about meeting your soulmate, someone you would like to have lunch together everyday, talking in phone for all night long after working hours, blah blah blah.. Nonetheless, should I say I prefer this? Hm… I am so ambitious sometime, and so envy about the woman who can really work, on the other hand she can handle the family great. I love that!

The working environment of my company, or rather I say my branch, is getting complex, worse! That’s a very long story. Aww.. so painful sometime, I don’t understand. It’s about backstabs and backstabs, fighting and struggling! Well, I have to face this problem at everywhere. Perhaps. hmph. I always hope that I won’t getting down (so fast) after the few months, or almost a year of working hard! I don’t know when I will stop this job, but that’s not about now! But hey, the people around is just getting..hmm.. different? Or I got the real face after all this long time? Urgh. Anyway, the people reading this, that’s not talking about you! No worries. haha

Plus, room renovation, it’s just a room, but we’ve been busy for it about two months. However, this is the happy thing, which I am so willing to get into it. Time is getting tight and I am still fooling around and still about undecisive deal with a lot of things, items, details….

Okay, I have to learn all these… I’m still a little honey pie for my sweetheart anyway?.. haha

Happy gone, Headache here comes…

焕宁回英国了!

虽然不是每天见面,

可是,这也代表我这两三个月的‘快乐空档’又没有了!

很享受和自己的朋友在一起,认识很久的朋友,同学!

和老朋友在一起,可以谈好多东西,不用解释以前发生了什么事,不用在说一件事情的时候还要解释当事人是怎样的人,等等!总之是可以畅所欲言!而且不用有所避忌。

尤其深夜时候和韵媚还有焕宁在车上的秘密!不是所有人我们都想和他们分享的哦!还要辛苦焕宁找地方兜!嘻嘻。

昨晚,和一班朋友在city club晚餐,之后去yatch club。在yatch club很舒服啊!不是很多人,我们围在一个厅里谈天,昨晚还是我大火之后第一次真正参观整个club。很喜欢,很舒服!

很怀念那一个晚上和他在那里漫步……..